The Only Way to Conquer is To Divide

I was playing music on Youtube, for a Turkish soundtrack of a series that I used to like back in the days, and I knew it was old but my brain doesn’t register how old that series is…until I saw a comment that says:Who is listening to this in 2020? and above that my eyes hit this sentence:
(6 years ago)

And my brain froze….

2020 was 6 years ago….wow.

How on earth did time pass this quick? where did the years go? how does it all feel like a blur…I remember my teenage years with my friends vividly, we still make some jokes that we used to make then and until now we laugh on them! without reminding each other of what are we refering to, as we all remember them! we all remember those days, the days that we call:
“The best years in our lives”

Before they stole them away, before we learned what politics are, what Sunni, Shiaa, Alawi, Christian Protestant, Orthodox, Marooni…..is.

What are all of these labels? we never asked, we never knew, we were just friends! none of us were religious anyways so why would it matter what these labels mean? we didn’t know and we didn’t care….but the world forced us to care, because thats how they enforced their divisions.

You need to divide to conquor

And then the division grew bigger and bigger, I travelled to study abroad, and for the first time in my life I had with me in class, friends who had different skin color, different eye shapes, different cultures and super weird religions and beliefs that I never heard of.

And I started learning how the color of your skin matters, because I started noticing how when I’m with my friends who are Pakistanis and Indians, they are ignored and I’m given more attention because I’m “Whiter”.

But also…I was ignored when I was with someone who came from the west, who spoke perfect English and who was blond with colored eyes… And I started seeing how there was these invisible categories and boxes that people get thrown in.

It’s invisible as no body really say it…but yet it’s soo clear, and as I grew older and older, those invisible boxes, became cages that defined my identify, that defined my worth, that defined who I am, and where I’m allowed to go, and what I’m allowed to do.

And no matter where you go, you are locked into that box, even when you paint that box in another color (you get another passport) even then you are asked:
“Yes but originally where are you from?”

I started seeing that people get hired at work not because of their skills but because of where they come from, and also for me I got rejected for where I came from automatically, no need to even bother interview me.

I started seeing how someone who have 10% of my skills would make x2 my salary, just because they are from the west and I’m not.

How they would hire people from the west because management believed they had more knowledge than us, only for us (me and other Arabs) to end up teaching them how to do their jobs.

How majority of the people who reach the highest titles are mostly white, mostly men, rarely woman…and even more rare a woman of color.

Time was slow when we were teenagers, none of this mattered, or maybe it always mattered but I never saw it, maybe I was stuck in my bubble, surrounded by my friends who were from the same class as me, both financially, society…etc.

Maybe others looked as us and saw privlege, but I never saw it, but again maybe I never saw it because I was too naive and too ignorant to notice, I just wanted to laugh and crack jokes and play cards and chitchat and waste time in cafes with my friends and go from one place to the other and roam the streets.

Maybe if I looked, I would have saw our university classmates who couldn’t afford to hangout in cafes like us, maybe I would have seen the divide and the groups that was formed between the different casts and beliefs, because thats what they tell me when I say I never noticed….they say it was always like this.

But how is it like this? when we have till this day Mosques and Churchs literally sharing a wall between them, I been to them myself in both Aleppo and Damascus, I’ve never seen anything like it!

My mom’s friends were 90% Armenian christians, when I was a kid and I had an arguement about religion with them, my mum shouted at me so bad infront of them all that I never dared ever raise that topic ever again.

I still see women who are Christians (I would be able to know from their accent somehow Armenian Christian’s Aleppian have very unique accent) sharing table with women who cover up from top to bottom in black, I can see the way they are chitchatting that they are close friends.

So where did this divide come from? was it planted between us?

And why does it matter what you worship and what I worship? that is if we do in the first place, as majority of us were just born into that religion and thats it…its not like we are devotees.

Why are the Sunnis and Shiaa are still fighting over something that happened literally hundred if not thousands of years ago? I swear to god you go open any video in Arabic Youtube video, even if its kids cartoon, and scroll a bit and boooom!!! you will see it! some unnecessary and absolutely not related to the topic of the video comment from one side shitting on the other, unprovoked and unnecessarily.

How did they brainwash us to hate each other this much?

How did they make the entire west Islamophobes, that even us we started being anxious seeing a man with long beard thinking that he will surely blow himself up, because of all the constant brainwashing that they do to us in movies and in news….all terrorist are arabs/afghanis/bangladeshi…etc. doesn’t matter what they are, one thing they surely are:
MUSLIMS

Even the way that the media write about it, go see any news ANY NEWS that happened in the last 15 years in the west about some bombing or school shooting in the US (maybe it happens once per week) and see how if its done by a white christian person, then they never NEVER say the word:
Terrorist
They phrase the sentence as a shooting, a muder, an attack.

But once its a Muslim, TERRORIST!

not once, not twice, I’ve been monitoring this for years, and it never fails, every damn time.

I’m so sick and tired man! what a disgusting world we are living in, and this is all human made, all of it!

God literally gave us the most beautiful planet, literally everything we need to survive and thrive, gave us all the wonders within us.

And yet….we chose this…..THIS!!!!

Absolutely disgusting, I’m so fed up! I wish I can just pack my life now and just go somewhere off the grid, anywhere, anywhere where I don’t need to hear or deal with this shit.

Maybe an island where its people are so poor to have internet or TVs, maybe a village where they are too busy with farming that by the end of day they reach bed and don’t have energy to listen to this shit!

They flipped us against each other, everything they are building in this world is made to make us be more and more isolated, because the more they isolate us, the easier it is to control us, to brainwash us, to make us viberate on such a low viberational level that fear and anxiety will be the dominating feelings we have.

We are starting to forget that we are social creatures, we are starting to forget that our connection matter more than any materialistic thing, we are starting to forget that our existince together is so crucial for the survival of both of us, we are starting to forget what is it like to have a close-knit families, to have real friendships without any motives and agendas.

Even love is becoming harder and harder, even though thats the feeling that comes built-in in us, we are all capable of loving, even the most evil of us, even that they are stripping it from all meaning, we became images that we swipe right and left on each other, and then you ghost and then you get called 100 and billion labels, just because “internet” said:
If a person behaves in this way, then this person is X.

Were they with us in the room? did “internet” hear the backstory, the outside elements, the inside elements, what was the conversation like? what was the tone of voice like? what was the true intention like?

You know I feel like thats the end goal to end us as humans, to numb us down entirely…too burdened and too tired to even have any capacity to love, or even to think about it.

Love is becoming a scarce luxury.

I’m very angry today, I’ve already lashed out about the west on my instagram stories lol, which is not something you’d see anymore as I went private.

Why did I go private?

Well because I was sick and tired from people who in real life they block me and act like they don’t want anything to do with me, only for them to go create fake accounts and come stalk me EVERY SINGLE DAY.

its soo disgusting honestly, like grow up, if you love me just say that you love me, if you hate me then act like it bitch!

I got fed up from giving free entertainment for those bitches, my account had 200 followers and I was getting 50k views a MONTH! how on earth? when none of my stories reach more than 80 people?

You know how? because on a daily basis I get shit loads of people checking my pinned highlights as I keep on adding to them, and since you can’t go directly to the latest added, people need to tap through allllll the highlights to reach the newest ones.

So you can imagine how many people were doing that on the daily :)

OBSESSED!

Yeah I don’t want their attention, I don’t want their obsession, I just lost interest in anything and everything, it doesn’t feel good anymore, my ego has been stroked enough, these silly games no longer interest me.

and to be fair, if they Nuke us all down now in one go….that doesn’t sound like a bad thing.

Even hope feels useless! every time I hope, a global disaster happens.

Yeah fuck it all, I’m ready to meet my creator and say…seriously bro?

Peace out!