[THE UPDATE] Too driven, too fast…too exhausted!

[THE UPDATE] Too driven, too fast…too exhausted!

I’m baaaaaaaackkkk!!! If you’ve missed me put a clap on this article — Don’t know why I’d ask for that and publicly embarrass myself knowing that I’ll get zero 😅 but it’s okay.

If you’ve read my how exhausted I amarticle, then this is the update to see if I managed to actually do what I said I’ll do to lower my exhaustion or not.

If you haven’t read that article then don’t read this one as it will not make any sense but maybe your curiosity will kill you…and we can’t risk that, so please proceed in reading🤷🏽‍♀️

So the actions were:

You won’t see new articles till I’m back to Dubai, or maybe even longer — no no pls don’t cry, it’s okay I’ll be back, promise 🤗

I didn’t write anything until now at the airport waiting for my flight back to Dubai, I did have alot of ideas of things to write, and strong urge to do so, but I had to stop myself from doing that.

Close friends, If I send bants, ignore me don’t enable me — I need to rest, bants can wait. And you know and I know, if you send me something I’d die if I don’t hit back with a sarcastic comback so please save me from myself.

Activity was way less, people still sent bants, and I still responded to all😂 but in general it wasn’t that busy.

And If I wake up at 3, I’m forcing myself back to sleep.

I didn’t change my sleeping pattern during this trip to Egypt, I kept on sleeping early and waking up early but not as early — I got around 8 hours sleep every night and one day I was so exhausted that I slept 16 hours through out the day (in a house with 2 kids — so you can imagine how tired I was to not hear anything!)

In general I slept quite well 🙏

Minimal phone usage and screen exposure till Sunday or more.

I’m an addict, so this was hard, but seeing the screenshot below you’ll see my usage went down on somedays🤷🏽‍♀️, and also the quality of the time spent, wasn’t bad, so yes maybe I was on my phone alot BUT that time was spent reading things on medium, watching interesting vids on Youtube and one day I was quite active on Linkedin (this is mainly a waste because it doesn’t really feed my soul or my curiousity) but still better time spent than on the gram — one Linkedin encounter made me laugh quite alot, literally I’d think about it through out the day and laugh to myself so that’s a win! And honestly its true that not all heroes wear capes some of them wear little pink dresses 😂😂😂.

No freelancing this week, because the work quality is on the decline with this exhaustion.

Kind of embarrassed to say that I didn’t say no to the freelancing tasks haha but I only got 2 super easy ones — each for 40 pounds but each also took only 10 mins work.

So I did them 🌚.

But Instead I’ve done the following:

So I was for the week in Egypt, first time I come here but I’m here for business, so I’ve barely done any of the amazing touristy things to do (only 1 day I managed to do that — some shots posted on @findingleeeno)

But, I got to stay at my life long friend’s house, I haven’t seen her since 2013 when I left Syria and few years after she left to Egypt and it’s been 11 years since we met, yet we always were in touch and she’s the kind of friend that no matter if we see each other or not our relationship stays the same but catching up in person was definitely waay better.

I also got to spend time with Rana’s kids, never met them before , the elder one “Naseh” is such a smart boy! With the most beautiful eyes I’ve ever seen (Mashallah 🧿)

That boy will grow up not only to be someone important due to this intellegence, but also he’ll be so good looking and charming — girl’s would be lucky to be with him, not so lucky that his mom is Rana😈

And the young one “Fares”, I thought my niece Celine was the devil’s reincarnation, until I met Fares! I’ve never seen anyone this mischevious, he is literally a walking disaster and I find him hilarious! No its really crazy how mischevious that boy is and stubborn and loud (the opposite of Naseh)

But I noticed that my patience now is soo high, I actually managed to sit for the first time in my life with kids who are not my family, for a full hour alone and we actually had a full on conversation! I was mind blown!

Mainly it was me and Naseh talking and Fares shouting between us trying to be part of the conversation with his messed up sentences, throwing all the words he knows into one sentence just to try and be part of the conversation 😂

I’ve changed alot, and that actually makes me so happy, I’m more patient and I always struggled with that, I’m more accepting, and the way my perspectives are changing lately shows that I’m no longer that stubborn even.

And I spent quite sometime with Namir, the guy that I wish he was my actual brother, because I’ve never met someone who’s that hard working, giving, smart, loved by people around, as much as him, and he have loads of stories and I’m all about stories 😂 whether telling them or hearing them so it was such a fun time riding next to him in his car going across Cairo’s driving madness (safe to say I thought we would crash over 10 times and one time someone actually did crash into us but — he said “M3lesh” which means “it’s okay” so it was “m3lesh” and we moved on in life😂.

So I barely got to see anything in Egypt, but I loved what I saw and this is the first of soo many trips to come, loved Rana and Namir’s home, spending time with them was better than anything touristy.

And now I fly back to Dubai but…I still feel exhausted so the recovery is not done yet, the energizer bunny is on 40% but life is good and I’m happy and blessed so nothing else matters.

I’ll take it slow-ish 🚀