AHHHHH I NEED NEW FRIENDS!!!!
The shittiest thing has happened this morning! I uncovered the biggest gossip of all times!! and my excitement was over the roof!! and then! it collapsed! I got no body to tell this goss!
No its not like no body, it’s like the ones that are all relevant to be told, as they know the person involved in the gossip…they are all not in my life anymore AHHHHHHHHH!!! and that feeling feels like shit!
Because those ones, if i tell them the news they’ll gasp! but if I like go tell my other girlfriends who don’t even know, nor they care….they’d be like…yeah cool story bro -_-
Damn it!! what to do now?
Speaking of the friends topic, you know what I surprisingly realised, is that when I severed those connections, I didn’t miss the ones that we had the deepest conversations (As I already have those internally) and I actually can blog about it….I missed the one that I used to joke the most with!
like we used to laugh so much and send each other type of funny content that only us would laugh on…yeah it took me like a month after that almost every day finding something to share and then remembering…oh!
that person no longer exists in my life, and the same feeling I felt today…
You see I always kept my inner circle small and limited, because when I say inner circle it means I give you full access to me, (that doesn’t mean share everything in my life btw as I am still a very private person even to the closest).
but it means you know where I am at all times if you ask, you are always updated on my life, you can just message me at 2 am or 3 pm, whatever, inner circle means “I’m always available”.
But then I realised in my latest years, that yes my inner circle are solid (were*) but as we grow you realise that we get more busy, more responsibilities, more this and more that, that planning things and doing stuff or just hanging out becomes harder and harder,
which means most days I’d end up solo because the gang is busy, and it was always easy for me to make friends, well…with the caveat “If I’m in a good mental space”, yeah but in my normal state its so easy! like I can hang out and have fun with almost anyone as long as they have good sense of humor.
You’ll not believe it, that when I spent a week at the Osho Ashram (Tapoban) in Kathmandu last december, first day I arrived in the evening so I dind’t have time to meet anyone, then second and third I fell soooo sick that I couldn’t even leave my bed and even then,
I actually already managed to hangout with an older wiser man and we had tea together, but then once I recovered I was minding my own business in the cafe wanting to read a book I bought from the Osho library, and then there was only one table under the sun, and it has 2 benches so on one of the benches there was a lady laying down sunbathing in her full attire hahaha
I just said “excuse me can i sit here? and I won’t make any noise”, she responded in her broken English that yes sure, and somehow she stood up from the laying down and she sat with me.
And guess what even though she doesn’t speak English much as she’s Nepalese, but we got talking and I told her all the gossips with my hand movements and speaking simple english that she actually understood the issue that happened to me in the first osho ashram days ago,
and how I had a fight with them and left, and this lady apparently has been full time living in this ashram so she knows everyone, so another one came to say hi to her, and she started explaining to her in Nepali what I just told her, and I said yes yes tell her the gossip 😂
so now I have two nepali ladies on my table talking and then double checking the facts with me and turns out the other girl spoke english and she actually knew the people i’m talking about in the other ashram and she told me gossip about them too!!! Wow!!
and we were all now just laughing, and then 2 of their friends were passing by, so they waved and came to say hi and I invited them over to sit, and now we are a big table all laughing and talking and I swear an hour before I didn’t even know anybody!
And apparently those people I just met turned out to be the “inner circle” somehow there are inner circle, like they are connected to the highest authority guy in the ashram who people follow like a guru, the big Swamiji, so they know the ins and outs,
and they started inviting me to all of their hangouts, and i got invited to their rooms for tea sangha 😂 and what was supposed to be a week of spirituality or at least trying to figure out what this Osho is about for my Youtube video, it turned out to be the most fun social thing ever! I swear the people were soo much fun! such good sense of humor, and at the same time super intelligent and have depth so the conversations were top notch!!!
Can you imagine! and it all started with me gossiping with sign language to a lady about the other ashram….wow! the power of gossip haha and I left that place with literally around 10–15 people that I actually know and talk with and maybe 5 that we actually became friends, that i’d reach out to when I go back to Nepal.
No but really, people love hearing stories and they love hearing gossips! and I’ve got loads! not by choice! somehow my life is veryyyyy full of action!
so I always end up in a situation that on spot its shit, but always ending up to make the most epic story to be told ever! the kind of story where my friends will gather around me all silent and just hearing every word I say because it’s always filled with plot twists! not even friends, even my family! when we gather with my aunties and stuff I’d tell them the craziest of stories and if they are not physically there with me in the same city, I’d actually send Whatsapp voice notes along with pictures and stuff to tell them what action I’ve lived! and it’s always hilarious!
*Example when I went to Damascus 2 years ago, my flight got cancelled and I got stranded in a city at 4 am where I don’t know a soul and I didn’t have local money (exchanging dollars was back then a fellony that would put me in jail), AT 4 AM! and I managed to share a taxi with peeps to the only boutique hotel I knew, without a booking! and I ended up chilling with the receptionist guy who remembered my face and two of the other sleepless guests at 5 am!
and then the receptionist helped me to find a booking by calling his receptionists friends across the boutique hotels in the area (this is old damascus area) and when he walked with me to drag my bag to the one we just spoke to on the phone! the guy opened the door for us mid sleep and once he saw its a man and a woman, he started shouting to our face that he won’t allow us in, as it’s illegal!
and he didn’t understand that this guy is only helping me to drag my bag across the cobblestone and he is not checking in with me, but it all fell on deaf ears, and here I started shouting and cussing the guy, mind you this is 5 am in a very historical neighborhood where sound travel, that people started gathering to see who is this girl and why is she shouting (syrians…we love the gossip) and ended up dragging my bag back to the first boutique hotel with my receiptionist friend running behind me and laughing saying: “Now I understand when they say Aleppians have temper” hahah! yeah he saw it all!
I’ll spare you the rest of the details of how the day progressed as it was hell! and I dind’t tell anyone from my family while I was living this as I didn’t want them to worry about me, I waited until I reached Dubai and then I broadcasted the story on my families Whatsapp groups (yes we have a few) and everyone died laughing! like what on earth!!!! how come I always end up in such places! wallah I don’t know! all i wanted was to board my flight! and an hour later I’m fighting and making a scene in old damascus…..sigh!
But I think that’s how I fell in love with story telling….I love to tell stories! like I love to make others relive what I lived by telling them about it!
So bottom line is, I need more friends to hear their stories and tell them mine and so I’d have an outlet for the gossips, and its never btw gossip as in damaging thing, no no i’m not into talking shit about others just for the sake of it, no its like juicy stuff that makes people involved gaspppp!!! LIKE NO WAY THAT HAPPENED!
Yeah that’s the kind of info I’m sitting on today, with zero audience…sigh!
So! I need new friends, in my upcoming trips I will be living in places so when i go to a destination i’ll stay a month, 2, 3…basically I’ll stay until I feel like i want to go to the next, so I’ll have bases for a while, good enough to have friends and hangout with people from all over the world, and maybe I’d establish an international gossip network, so I’d never find myself in a place like today 😬
That’s all! light read for today…
Peace out!
*Just noticed this is story number 85! we’re close to the 100 stories written mark..WHATTT!!!
