Always Forgive…Never Forget!

Today I was sitting with who probably is the most successful man I have ever sat with in my life, and success here is by society standards:
Built Billion dollar companies and whatnot.

I didn’t sit with him to fangirl and take his autograph, I sat with him as an equal (even if his ego would probably not allow him to see that) but he is a human, I am a human…we both have two feet and two arms, so we are…equal! (knowing how wild that man is, he’ll probably read this and say we’re not and mention 🍆)

Anyways…that’s beside the point!

And we were chitchatting…mostly me! I literally wanted to meet him excited to know where on earth does he actually work now! and I sat with him for like 2 hours, he didn’t even get the chance to tell me! because I had to tell him all the hell i went through (professionally).

But here’s a summary:

Agency:

• Worked there for 7 years, Loved it! gave my all! achieved all the success that a human can achieve! left because “midlife crisis” when I left I couldn’t stay quiet about the co-founder who I always felt was grooming me, but never was too sure! until he actually gave me an evidence, reported him for harassment, that co-founder just killed himself less than 20 days ago…in the most brutal way a human can end their life (not because of me…he has waaaay more bigger issues that he had to worry about, and way many attempts to end his life way before I ever existed, so…it’s nothing about me this is for those bitches who started checking my profile on the day of his passing feel free to throw the blame however you see suitable!

Nothing in life more disgusting than a woman who cause misery to other women, you bitches came to me and told me what he did to you, each one of you! but you never had the balls to speak up, and when I did it for all of us….I was the one to blame for his misery! pathetic!

Anyways moving on.

Fintech:

Survived only one month, got fucked by my own people “the Syrians” two silicon faced bitches and one Godzilla who her ass is bigger than the ego of the CEO (trust me thats insanely big!!)

anyways i pissed them off because my light blinded them! them and their insecure CEO! all talks zero action…..millions in spend…zero in ROI. 
But sure! i was not a cultural fit and to be honest….i wasn’t!

I’d never fit in a place where everyone is below mediocre, and where the money is Haram money, so thanks for getting me fired.

But that was my ticket to get my golden visa and to save my parents from the Syrian curse! and they made me lose it! and I sooo fucking hate them for that! and my hate towards them will be the fuel that will make me a billionaire and I will use my money to end the Syrian curse not only for my mom and dad and my relatives and friends…no! for hundreds of thousands of Syrians if not millions (and god is my witness).

Today my parents left home to go to the neighbour house, bullets penetrating the walls of my home in Aleppo while my parents were inside…I hope you are happy after you got me fired…I hope hearing that I couldn’t save my parents from this misery because of your insecurities can help you sleep at night :)

But…have you heard of Karma :)?

Corporate:

9 month, accepted that job out of desperation as I couldn’t take my own business off the ground, i was suffering multiple heart breaks at one, family issues, friends betrayal….wayyy tooo much for me to handle at one go! so I just needed anything that can help me pay rent and survive..that’s all! no dreams and no ambitions for 2025. Just survival.

And when I left, the day I resigned I had no clue I was resigning!

but I have had enough! I was witnessing abuse of other women, I was witnessing bullying…extortion…everything! and I was quiet and quiet for soo long because I can’t afford to speak up and I was too depressed to have the energy to speak up, but they made me reach a breaking point when the Abuser acted like the victim and all those in power took her side, that’s when I had to put an end to it! and I slayed her!

and she’s one of the most evil humans I ever met in my life! so I had to slay that demon and to leave!

with no backup plan and no enough money for the next 2 months, but you know what I left with? my morals! my dignity! my fire! the fire that was so weak for the last year and it got ignited again by the hatered I saw from her, her evil! lit up my own fire again! and for that…I’m thankful.

Speaking about all the above today, taking that walk down memory lane, and that meetup happened in Abu Dhabi so I had an hour and a half drive home where I was reflecting about it all and I realised this:

The agency:
The day I heard that the harasser passed, I wanted to vomit! that’s the only thing I felt, I was sad for him! and yet my brain saying what are you even sad about! I guess I was sad because life should never end in such horrible way! thinking of him like that, imagining him like that! it made me sad.
At that night I was walking home and I looked up the sky and said:
“I Forgive you…I hope your soul finds peace”

Does that erase what he did? no! especially what I heard from other women, what he did with me was nothing…but with others! oh my god! absolute filth of a human that man was, so I do forgive him…but I’ll never forget.

**The Fintech:**I didn’t forgive yet and I will not forget and they will be the fuel to my fire! until the day I hit my Billionaire status which is just that btw…a status! if you know me, who I truly am..you know that I love making money but I never care about it! I always give it all! (stupidly) so I don’t care about being a billionaire to have jets and a fleet of super cars! I care about the status!

I want young and even old Syrian girls to look at me and say…yeah! maybe there’s another way to live other than marriage and kids.

Maybe….if someone who is pure Syrian like Lin..no foreign passport, not an ivy league can become a billionaire, maybe we can dream! maybe we can make it too! maybe we can be even better! who is even that sarcastic prick to make it! we surely can do better.

And I really hope they do 🙏

**The Corporate:**Nothing to forgive…I didn’t give a shit about them all collectively :) and yet I fought for the women there, and I do know that change took place after I left even if top management make it sound as if they were the ones who were behind the change…it was me, but anyways fuck you all! i don’t care about you and your disgusting work environment…ugh! just remembering that office makes me shiver.

Bottom line, today I am very angry! everything that is going on is making me sooo angry! and this is not a bad thing! i don’t want anyone to tell me calm down! how about you shut up! I will never calm down! I am fire! the world needs my fire! and I shall burn whomever try to dim it.

No moral of story…just a vent!

Peace out!