Life...Unexplained

Yesterday I had what maybe a migraine, I'm not sure! it's the same kind of one sided headache with tension behind my eye and it lasted a full day! the kind of pain that is nauseating, and I've been monitoring this for a while, because I have a theory that when it happens then its unexplainable and it's related to something/someone, which I documented it on 5th of April when it happened.

But nothing really happened yesterday, nothing odd, nothing out of place so I thought yeah maybe now I just have migraine, but then by chance today I wanted to go look in my archive on instagram to reshare a video of the first time I met honey (the family dog) and I see underneath it a memory highlighted from 2 years ago same day, and then it hit me!

I went back in my gallery to see if I have anything from yesterday's date, 2 years ago and I saw it....fuck! man without going into it, but it was something major and it was related to that something/someone, and this fucks me up so much because it's Divine comedy! It's like whomever is up there controling this whatever it is life, simulation..etc. It's like they like to mess with me! I do everything that I can to forget and move on, and then something like this happens and it just ruins my mood, the last thing I needed was to go back and check memories from 2 years ago, I hate that time in my life and I hate everything that came after it!

And I refuse to be dragged back into dwelling over a delusion OOOOOFFFFF!!!! thank god I have a busy day today else this will be on my mind for the rest of it, and you know what! maybe fate is not within our control but my actions and freewill are! and I simply won't even let myself to even think about it! so today...is distraction day :)

Peace out!