The Punk Becomes A Monk

Yesterday morning I was working on my laptop and out of nowhere, the word “Kopan Monastery” popped into my head…maybe because I did mention it in my articles few times in the past few days, so I was like hmmm I remembered they had courses and retreats, lets me see what they’re up to.

So I go to the website, lo and behold they have a course called “Get to know your mind” starting in 4 days and what did I do? I SIGNED UP! Haha!

Wait wait, there’s nothing crazy about the first half, it gets interesting in the second half, it is actually 7 days course where you need to checkin your mobile and laptop at the reception before you start :)

So, no connectivity with the outside world for 7 FULL DAYS!!!! Even writing that scares me!

Because I am aware that I have an addiction to technology, partially due to it being my work, partially due to it being my hobby, like I am a tech nerd since a veryyy young age, ever since mom taught me how to turn on a computer…I’ve never left it!

And I think the maximum I ever did without my phone was one full day…how can I do 7?

But I’m actually very excited!!! What did I say before leaving dubai? I said: I need an adventure! Well this will be one!

Add to the above, I’ll actually be sleeping in a dorm with others :) last time I did that was probably 2019 when I volunteered in Rural Nepal, and let me tell you I am NOT a hostel kind of girl!

I tried it once in Thailand and it was like only 4 beds and all girls and yet I couldn’t sleep, I was very anxious to the idea that there are strangers sharing a room with me, then I did the volunteering thing and I guess because I physically worked soo damn hard in the day, I just collapsed at night without thinking about anxiety, even though the guy who slept in the bunk bed literally one meter next to me was snoring like a trumpet!

But I think here in the monastery, seeing that everyone is coming for peace and personal reflection and there are big NO NOs that we are not allowed to do:
Sex, drugs, alcohol, profanity…etc

So! I think everyone will behave, except if due to my luck some monks go rogue and start shagging each other, then that would actually be one of the best stories I can tell in my life 😂 so I don’t mind it happening.

Anyways, sarcasm aside…I think I need it, whenever I get a calling for something, it means its important for me to do, and that monastery popping up in my mind out of nowhere, and having a course starting perfectly at the time my hotel booking finished…i think that’s a calling.

Also, I have unresolved issues that I’d like to know why? Because I know its something internal…so it would be good to have time to reflect.

I will actually take time every day to write about my experience that day before I sleep and then once I finish the experience I’ll put it all here.

And its actually funny that just yesterday I was writing about “stability” haha! Yeah there’s nothing stable at all about someone jumping from an idea to booking a 7 days retreat all in 10 minutes! I didn’t even think about it! Like no thought process whatsoever, most decisions which are of this sort, I always take the action first…and then worry about the consequences.

Especially when its an intuition 🙏

Anyways I’m sitting writing this as my bland breakfast gets cold which I literally said FIRST COFFEE AND ONCE I FINISH BREAKFAST!!!!

And I did the same thing yesterday..and what do i hear from the guy? Yes yes sure maam sure! And what do I get? Both coffee and breakfast together 😕

Astaghfirullah I know it doesn't look bad, but trust me...the blandness is unreal! every day I feel like I'm having prison food...but! anyways it's optional I can skip it entirely as I'm not big on breakfasts anyways I find it the most useless meal a day, and it makes me sluggish, but I guess because its free so I follow my dad's teachings:
"If it's free, then you never say no"

Hahahah

Peace out!