Man plans, and god laughs

Ahhh the irony of life! It’s really is:

“Man plans, and God laughs” on the regular, everytime you think “This is it!”, “That’s the one”, “This friendship is for a lifetime” only a matter of time until life smacks you in the face and shows you…Ummm actually No!

That’s not the one

It’s not for a lifetime

And that sure ain’t it

If anything that was proven in my life is, **change is the only constant **and that the faster you adapt to change the more resilient and unbreakable you become.

Yesterday something happened that shocked me to my core in ways that I actually forgot how does this feel like, as the last time I experienced something similar it was in my childhood.

And for a minute my brain started spiraling, but anyways I was having migraine for the first time in my life that day (part of the migraine gang now apparently 🤷🏻‍♀️) so I went to sleep, woke up and its like nothing happened!

I’ve became so accustomed to change, that I move on in a snap! I didn’t even shed not even one tear, even though I’m lately the Aunty who cries over anything and everything IN PUBLIC.

But I cry because something touches me, because I am an empath, because feeling is the most beautiful thing about being human.

But this incident even though it shook me to my core, it didn’t feel like anything worth crying over.

And for that absolute horrible human who I trusted my life with, I tell you, I didn’t read the message, I only saw few words which were enough for me to know the ugliness of you.

The message is deleted for me, and I’ll never know the venom that you spilled, so if you thought you can shatter me with your words, then for me, the moment I saw your true “You” i knew you’re not even worth being heard, so I’ll let you go spill the venom elsewhere, but it’ll never effect me.

I don’t feel sorry at all for everything we’ve lived and experienced together, life is nothing but chapters and my chapters always close in darastic ways, so your chapter is closed shut and the lesson is learned.

You’ll spend your life spreading shit about me, about things i confinded in you, to other people who are just as venomous as you are…and I’ll live my life without ever saying anything you’ve confided in me or even even mentioning you, as you are worthless!

And anyways everything I’ve ever shared with you are things that I’m okay sharing with any close friend, but I never shared what truely is deep to me, because if you think you’re the first person that I see this from, then you’re far from wrong, I’ve been there and done that, so I already have trust issues, which I’m so thankful for that now! What a blessing 🙏

You can be the ugliest most snakiest human on the planet earth, but I’d still respect that when we shared that part of ourselves when we talked and opened up about anything and everything, it was done in a time where you actually meant something to me.

For me, responding harm back to you with the same amount of harm will only impact me and not you, as I’m not an absolute trash of a human as you are, so I do the above as a respect not for you, for me.

But please go get your satisfaction from talking shit about me as much as you want, to sell your agenda to people, so they can confirm that your absolute ugliness is 100% justified.

P.S: if you think I’ll be removing those videos of us, I won’t ☺️ because if anything they show how genuine and kind of a human I am.

And also because I know that you have issues with your body/face image, even though to be fair I’d worry more about the ugliness of your soul more than your exterior, but I’ll leave the videos as they are, over time they’ll be buried down with all of the amazing life memories that I’ll be making.

And you’ll always come back to check on me from your “burner” account, and you’ll see those videos, you’ll see the friend you lost, and you’ll see how horrible you were to me.

You’ll regret this soo much and you’ll live with the guilt, but don’t ever think to reach out to say you’re sorry or beg for it, honestly I’ll be blocking you without even bothering to respond, when I fight with someone and i shout and say shit it actually means I care! But the moment I go silent, this is where you’d know its over.

And for me, this is over.

*Ironic that you sent me that message a day after you went to do “Omra” 😂 Haha! People like you are the reason why I don’t take religion seriously. Not enough prayers,haj and omras will clean the uglyness that’s in you, as the only one who matters “God” can see through all of that:

و على نياتكم ترزقون

Peace out 🫶