What If The World Ends Today?

It’s one of those hypothetical questions that you’ve at least asked it to yourself once in your life.

What if today was your last day…what would you do?

To be honest when I used to ask myself that question, I mean first of all there’s a difference between if today was “Your” last day, or if its collectively the last day for everyone around you.

Alright this article may sound morbid but not really, hear me out.

When I used to ask myself that question my imagination always used to jump to the cliché, telling those who you love that you loved them.

Being around the ones that matters the most…goodbyes and cries and shit.

Clichè

When I asked myself this question today morning in my early morning rituals time pre sunrise.

None of that came to my mind…I had a different kind of peace.

I don’t want to do anything of that kind.

The only thing that came to my mind (probably because i slept while hungry last night) is that I want to have junk food, maybe AlBaik as my final meal (even tho last time i had it few days ago it was mediocre) and probably smoke a really nice shisha.

Thats all.

No goodbyes, no farewells…nothing.

Here’s why:

1. There’s not one single human that I love that I didn’t tell them that I love them, literally all of them! Every single damn one that comes to my mind and I feel that I love them, I already tell them even the ones that dont talk to me.

And those who talk to me, whenever I feel it, I say it. Literally maybe yesterday morning or the day before, nothing happened and its very uncommon for me to express my feelings to my mom.

And I just messaged her:

Mom I love you so so much, no reason, I just felt like saying it.

And I moved on to the next topic.

So number one is covered.

2. Living with regrets: I am so proud of myself to say that I always lived with the regret of my actions over the regret of the lack of actions, I always did whatever I want to do, even when it was absolute insanity!

I can’t think of one single damn thing that I regret and say I wish I did, honestly nothing! Anything I felt like doing or saying…I did it.

So…I’m at peace from that aspect.

3. Saying I’m sorry: There’s no one in my history that I’ve hurt or did wrong that I didn’t apologize to, even if it took me years to do it, but i did it.

So I can’t think of anyone that I owe an apology. Those who I am not apologizing to, it means I can’t see anything wrong with my action and it’s 100% deserved, so i dont care if this is my last hour. You can go fuck yourself 🙏

4. Not ready to meet my creator: lol this is what they used to terrorize us with when we were young whether at school or society, do not wait until you’re old and about to die to become a good muslim, so many people die before their times, unexpected….how would you meet your creator? You’ll go to hell.

Okay:

A) if your creator is sadistic one that you actually believe you’ll be grilled in hell and your flesh melts and recreates again and you burn again, then that’s your creator not mine.

Mine is a god of love, patience and forgiveness.

B) I’ve seeked alot, I’ve asked alot, and I’ve wandered alot and while I know that what I already know is nothing but a drop in an ocean of knowledge, but…my intuition never fails.

And my intuitions and the way i felt while I prayed those 5 times aday, without being present, without being connected, just doing the aerobics as everyone around me does.

I can guarantee you, its of zero value…ZERO.

So society shame us because we don’t do the aerobics, but I believe was god really intended for us to do was simply take 5 times a day break of our time, to find peace, to connect, to reset.

Which is becoming insanely hard with the way our current life is built.

So unless you are actually achieving spiritual connection when you pray (rare) then your prayer is worth nothing, god is not waiting for aerobics.

C) ashamed of meeting my creator because of my actions? What actions? I’m only human, so yeah i did mistakes, and yes I have anger, and yes I’ve hurt people, but it was never with a bad intention, it was to defend myself, that was my coping mechanism, and even those I hurt I tried to fix it, but its not within my control more than apologizing and trying to be better the next time.

I can’t think of any major sin or bad thing I’ve done in my entire 33 years of living, literally nothing…and dont argue with me about weed and alchohol and shit, god forbids them due to their negative effects on us, not because if you do them then you are a sinner (in simple terms)

So I didn’t do anything! I never caused serious harm, I barely lie! Literally maybe once or twice a year and only for silly thing like skipping an outing, I don’t speak badly about others in a way to harm them sometimes its done for fun but nothing damaging at all. I give away money to those who need it, even when I’m the one who needs it.

I always chose to be hurt over hurting, even when it meant shattering my heart to pieces over and over again.

I never stole, nor ever had haram money, I worked hard for every single cent I made.

So yeah in the normal society sense if they ask me are you ready to meet your creator?

Then honestly…yeah! I was and still am a good human ever since i was a kid, I didn’t lose my purity, I didn’t lose my innocence.

Yes humans did force me to turn into a monster at times to be able to fight them and put them back in their place, but thats just a shell, thats not who i am on the inside.

And the shell never managed to creep into my core, and god can see whats within and what the true intention was.

So yeah…I am ready to meet my creator.

And lastly, I have seen magic so many times in my life, I’ve seen and felt soo many unexplainable things, I’ve loved more than I imagined I can love, I laughed harder than maybe anyone, I lived! And I cried and I just experienced being a human to as much as it was within my capacity, and if such feelings of bliss exists here in the mundane.

Then I can only imagine what it would be in other realms, and since I do believe there is other realms, this is not the only one,

Then I’m starting to see that this life here is actually hell, and once its over what will come is far more beautiful, far more pure and far more peaceful.

So if you tell me, the world is ending today, I’d say…goodies :)

Unfortunately Albaik will not be delivering and the world will be in pure chaos, and I don’t have a shisha at home and if i did probably I’ll make a shitty one.

So basically my final wishes won’t be attainable, so most likely I’ll end up showering and perfume myself as I always love to smell nice, even when I’m alone lol, make myself a nice cup of tea, munch my way through what I have in the fridge as I’d be too lazy to actually cook anything nice and just chill….

Peace out! 🤍