A Billionaire? You? Hahahaha!
Yup…story of my life! whenever I say I’ll become a billionaire ever since I was a kid all of my friends used to laugh, because it’s not even a millionaire which we might know a person or two around us who have achieved that so it’s within reach, no it’s Billionaire! a status that we don’t know anyone “IN REAL LIFE” that made it from all of the people around us, so why the hell a crazy petite girl 🤏 who is sarcastic as fuck who comes from a middle class family, say that she’ll become a Billionaire and we would believe her? she’s surely delusional.
I was persistent! I didn’t care about their laughter and jokes, because for me it was a fact, for them it was a delusion! and I wasn’t even able to explain like what makes me believe it in such way? like what do I have or my family have that gives me the idea that I’ll achieve that….nothing!
It’s not something you can explain, it’s fate! it was a very clear voice that I heard in my head when I was a kid, and that voice gave me all the reassurance and the belief that I need, to just surrender to that fate and accept it without worrying about the how-to.
And because I was so persistent, my friends started calling me “Leeno the Millionaire” hahah I mean that was an upgrade anyways! so I was happy with that, at least I ingrained it in their brains that even if they didn’t believe it, but they stopped being weird about it.
My family though, I didn’t mention it as much in front of them, but when I do they just laugh and say “Inshallah”.
Even though in alot of stages in my life I was always seeking approval, acceptance, validation, like I really needed validation of my work to feel good! to know that I’m really good at the work that I do, but for this one, I never needed anyone to validate it, it was already validated by the divine! like what human can say that would top that?
I think in 2014, or 2015 I don’t know exactly but my childhood friend got married and I was living in Kuala Lumpur at that time and she came to Malaysia for her honeymoon (Funny thing not only her, another childhood friend also came to Malaysia and I was the one who planned the honeymoon and I made them do adventure things so not honeymooon like and she hated me hahaha) and I actually find it hilarious that I was in both of their honeymoons! like for one of them I actually went up to the hotel which was my choice (Mandarin Oriental — Overlooking KLCC) and I jumped onto the bed to test it out 😂 😂.
Anyways, I was strolling down some local markets near Masjid Jamek with my friend and her husband (who he was third wheeling us on our honeymoon! the audacity of him!) and we saw a stall that engraves words on a grain of rice, and then puts in a necklace or a bracelet, so she loved the concept and wanted to get souvenirs for her sisters, and she said: Leeno I want to get you one too as a souvenir, choose what you want to write on it…I was quiet for a second and then said:
Billionaire
I took this picture this morning (5th of December, 2025) I still have it! so that memory was from 10 or 11 years ago, and I had the same belief.
And even at my first job at the agency they knew! (My birthday cake in 2018)
And again last year, this was taken in (2nd of November, 2024) my home setup:
Here I had lost a high paying job 4 months ago or so, I was burning through my savings and I was working on an Idea that I know that will be a multi-million dollar idea, unfortunately it was a logistical nightmare, that Idea would work for someone who’s already a shark and can open the facility on their own and not rely on suppliers.
Basically what I wanted to do is, I wanted to create a platform that sells merch for influencers/content creators/ any sort of a public figure who wants to sell merch for their audience, those people usually lack the tech savyness so I’ll take care of all of that, they just need to give me a design and choose what the items they want to create and the price (after the markup and their profit) that’s all, and I’ll get everything sorted, basically something like this:
https://www.spri.ng/discover-creators
But even better in terms of technology and ease of use! and that idea is solid, I know it is! it doesn’t exist in the middle east, no body is doing is like i want to do it, especially as well that my idea is print on demand, so there will be no stock and no lost money not for me and not for the creator so it’s risk-free.
Well let me tell you the UAE market is not ready for it, even the brains of people around me were not ready for it, when I told the idea to my friends it felt like I’m speaking Chinese, I don’t know why it felt so foreign for them even though aloooot of companies do that abroad and almost all influencers/content creators/online brands have merch!
But thats not the first idea in my life which sounds foreign to those around me, all of the ideas that I executed on (but never saw the light) literally all of them were of this sort, something so genius (even though its simple) but it’s not done in this market.
Anyways I spent around 3 months building the platform and going from one supplier to the other in Ajman, Sharjah, Dubai and any place I can find back and forth and hours wasted in traffic and frustrations, I didn’t leave a factory or a door not knocked, while some did show interest but they didn’t believe in me, I looked young (even though I was 31 — but thats the curse of baby face) I didn’t have the money so I can’t place orders in bulk at least booking the raw hoodies for example pre-print, I couldn’t do any of that and I kept on trying and trying and doors getting shut in my face right and left, and my savings got burnt…literally reached not only zero, actually minus! December, 2024 I had to ask my friend to lend me 10k so I can pay rent :) and he was the one even that had to do the business license for me, and even though it was only around 1500 AED, he paid it because I didn’t have it!
So I had to give up on that idea as it’s literally not within my hands, and the reason why I gave you this idea is because I will not be doing it, not now and not ever, so feel free to do it yourself, as it will bring you millions.
Hence why I saw the job at that corporate from hell place and i took the job even though it pays me almost half of what i was making before, literally half! but if I didn’t take it, the other option is me just entirely giving up and going to syria, but not even that! I had money owed to the bank and also rent cheques! so I can’t even just leave everything and disappear as that would block me from ever coming back to Dubai, and the people that matters the most to me live here, so that wasn’t an option.
And I was in severe depression due to everything that was going on in my life and add to that the insane financial stress, I literally hit a rock bottom, so that job was also the easiest ever, I knew exactly what it would be, and it turned out to be exactly that! a place where I just need to “exist” for 9 hours, thats all! absolute bare minimum when it comes to work delivered, and thats exactly what I needed, as my brain was already fried.
I wanted minimum interaction, minimum work, minimum anything! I just wanted to exist and get a salary to pay rent and my bills and just to survive.
I knew from the moment that I went in the first day, that I’m not staying but I didn’t know how long that would take as it depends on my mental state, I need to get out of survival mode in order for me to go get what I know I deserve. I knew that I’m leaving to the extent that I never had any personal items on my desk, or drawers, literally nothing!
The day I left (after 9 months), I packed my laptop (as it was my personal) my headphones and thats it…I walked out.
I also didnt’ want to have anything because when I got fired from the Fintech job, they did it in such a disgusting way, where the office girl who also operates as an HR (since the standard was very low) she actually had the audacity to go pack my stuff from my drawers and all while i was in a meeting getting fired, I’ve honestly never seen anything as disgusting as that, and while I rarely hate in my life, I genuinely don’t hate people even the ones that hurt me the most…but this girl! when she comes to my mind, I genuinely get disgusted and I feel hate.
Super against bullying people based on appearance, but I hate her so yeah I’ll do it and you can judge me! so here’s an actual real life representation of that Office lady/HR
I hated how inhumane she was, I hated those basic bitches who have 2 kilograms of fillers in their faces who got me fired just because they were insecure of my existence, I hated how they looked me in the eye and laughed when the office girl was dragging me out, I hate them honestly and I don’t care! and I don’t want to heal that emotion and deal with it, I HATE THEM!So anyways, I didn’t want to repeat the same thing in this corp, so I had no personal items whatsoever, when I resigned I was out in 10 seconds zero attachments, zero drama (at least from my end).
And now I’m back again in the phase of job hunting but here’s the thing I’m not in survival mode, I’m not in desperation mode! like NOT AT ALL! even though I don’t have money enough for me to survive more than 2 months, but I’m so sure of how skilled I am, and I’m not depressed, and when I’m in my normal state of being a functioning human…ooooofff!! it’s impossible not to blow the hiring manager’s mind.
The only issue is, HRs! there’s a special place in hell for HRs honestly! they are idiots! they don’t understand the job and they literally block me from reaching the decision makers, so even though I tried the traditional route for few days (and I’m actually taking it slow and I’ll go on a vacation because I need it!), but I don’t want to do this bullshit, when I’m back from my trip I’ll be directly reaching to the CEOs and decision makers at the companies which I actually like working at, I won’t do random applying, because I know I’ll be able to get what I want.
And before January, 2026 ends, I’ll have a high paying job and a high title (even though for me titles belong to the trash, but thats unfortunately what people respect — a label that defines who you are).
Now will I become a billionaire from a day job? Never! that can never happen no matter if your salary is $1 mill a month, you’ll never be a billionaire! so no, I need that job to take care of my life and to leave me out of survival mode so my creative juices and my brain turbo mode (the one that makes me finish shit loads of high quality work in a very short time) functioning so I can work on my billion dollar idea.
Will “The Stupid Theory” make me a billionaire? absolutely not! I’d never do something I love as passion, as a job! because I’ll hate it! I’m very moody! I can’t do anything creative as a full time job because I’ll fail.
My friend was telling me yesterday, so we should plan, brainstorm, we need to warm up the channel we need content.
And I said no no no, we don’t need any of that! I know in an optimal world thats exactly what you need to start a channel or any social account, so what she’s saying is 100% right, but that’s not what I want for The Stupid Theory, I said I already know what the first video is, and it’ll be enough and from that video we can take shorts and post them.
She kept on insisting to know what the first video will be, so I said it…and she gasped…she was literally shocked! and she cracked up laughing because she can see how amazing that idea is! how its sooo on brand! soo me!! and how it will set the high standard of the kind of content we will be making, and it brought me so much joy! because I know! I know what I’m capable of! I know I can make it big as a content creator, not because of arrogance! but because I already have the personality, skills and the brain! so yeah the first video will be epic!
Not all video will be epic because alot of it will also be fun stuff, taste tests, weird amazon finds, playing games..etc. as I love doing those things too, but the ones that represents how my life has been till this day, the way I travel and the experiences I live….they’ll be epic.
So **The Stupid Theory **is not at all a money making thing for me, it’ll never be! even though it will bring me so much money, and it will open so many doors and will connect me to cool people that i’d love collaborating with, but it’s not a money making project.
I had to go through all of this financial hardships that I went through last year, I had to reach zero because I was ungrateful for what god has given me before, I took it for granted and I didn’t know the value of money, so I had to lose it all, so next time when I properly have it, I’d know the value of it, I’d know how to retain it and to smartly use it to improve my life, the lives of those around me, and the lives of so many humans that I’ll cross paths with.
Also the sense of knowing that it’s a matter of time before it happens, takes off the stress of my mind, like yes I do need money to survive as survival mode kills all of my passion, creativity and will to live, so I should never ever let myself reach this level again.
HOWEVER, because I know the wealth that I’ll be making, I never looked at people my age who are by now some of them are on their second property, they have their own business, fancy car..etc. and envied them.
I never felt the need to compare, because its not a fair comparison, they chose a path that would’ve never fulfilled me, they chose security over risk, they chose comfort over discomfort, they chose reality over dreams.
so if I was to judge myself based on the achievements of others it’s absolutely not fair! even though sometimes in my low times it does creep to mind that what the hell have I done in my life, how come all the mediocre people that I’ve worked with before and they are my age or younger are now Directors, Heads…etc and here I am no title whatsoever, but then I remind myself again, is that what I want? career growth? titles? endless meetings where zero action and just endless bureaucracy? or would I rather live true to myself, being the dreamer that I am, the bundle of fire that just says fuck it — I‘ll do it!
Whenever I do something crazy and my friends be like “Ohhh shiiit not again Leeno!!!!” I laugh and I always say:
“When I’m on my death bed, I don’t want to look back and regret not taking that action, not saying that, not fighting for what mattered to me…so while now this might be a fucked up decision, but in the grand scheme of things I wouldn’t have chosen to do it any other way”
And every time the volcano within me erupts and I burn bridges and humans in the process, even though I feel guilty about it, but the reality is, what did they do for me to reach here?
how much have I been taking in and building up inside of me till I reached a point of eruption? is it normal for me to let my anger to eat me alive on the inside, just so I wouldn’t burn a bridge?
is it normal for me to cry myself to sleep because I feel worthless because someone made me feel worthless and I didn’t fight back for myself? No it’s not normal…thats what the world told you “normal” is, but not in my books.
I don’t need those bridges anyways, I’ll be steering my own raft.
So yeah for all of those humans that told me “I’m too much” and I actually believed them, I believed that “I am too much and there’s something wrong with me”
I tell you….Bitch! ofcourse I’m too much! It’s impossible to be doing everything that I’m doing / will be doing if “I’m too little”!
So I’m sorry if you’re used to “too little” that the “too much” comes as a negative shock to your system!
You’re absolutely right, you don’t deserve the “too much” so stay content with the “too little” and convince yourself that this is the norm, and I’ll go be my too much self:
Too much joyful, too much happy (when I’m not too much sad), too much alive, too much caring, too much adventurous, too much loving, too much creative, too much dreamy, too much disruptive….and soon too much wealthy.
Now for the Billion dollar idea, every time in my life when I said I want to be a billionaire but I care alot about how I make it, I care about the idea itself, I care about the path that I’ll walk, I won’t be fulfilled if I got that Billion through lottery, It need to be done through something that matters to me, and I think it matters to the world to, I think it will make a difference, and I think it’ll help me leave this earth better than when I found it.
So yeah! I expect that to see the light maybe end of 2026 or early 2027, and I can’t wait to share it with the world.
And I can’t wait for all of those who called me delusional, to look at me and say “ Holy Shit!!! She actually made it”
And I’ll go hire those silicon bitches that got me fired give them triple what they make, an offer they cannot resist, and then one month in I’ll fire them and drag them out….BECAUSE I’M PETTY LIKE THAT!! AND I HATE THEM 😠
Yup ladies and gents, I shall be the first ever “Syrian Female Self-Made Billioniare” unless someone beats me to it, which is fine…but I doubt it. because two lines under “Self-made”….yeah it’s hard! 🙏
Peace out!
