Stupid & Slow? Kill me!
I have been practicing patience ever since I've left that monastery, because Patience is not one my virtues haha never has been, literally never in my life!
So I figured in 2026 it would be good if I increase my patience levels, try to count to 10 before acting, try to think before I speak, try to accept that some times delays are for a good reason, so I should just have faith and not lose my mind because what I wanted to happen didn't happen NOW NOW!
And it has been working quite well! I think the current studio that I rented was the ultimate test to my patience, since it was literally under construction up until the day I moved into it, there was shit loads of things getting done every single day! bruh! I swear to god me and my landlord have been texting more than I message my family!
So you can imagine how much patience I was practicing during my time here and in general in my life I was doing quite good, but I noticed the one thing I cannot overcome is how I can go from 0 to 100 when I'm dealing with someone who's stupid and slow! I can't! I can't! I feel like crying!
My landlord is talented in hiring the slowest humans in the land! for real! probably it's his top criteria when hiring, are you slow? yes! congrats you are hired!
Few days ago I needed to move to another apartment until they sort out this place I live in, so the other apartment is in a building where he owns and there's a cafe down, so the task was very simple just to go to the cafe and one of the ladies that work there she'll give me the key to my apartment, he already informed them.
I go, I tell them: Hi can I get the key to apartment number 3? they say ahhh...ahhhh!! confusion!!! speaking in Nepali!! back and forth!!! and she asks? Number 2? I say no no three! X told me that I'll be given apartment number 3, he already informed you no? ahh ahhh looking right, looking left, unlocking her mobile but not doing anything, staring blankly...then another lady comes, same thing unfolds again, until in the end they manage to tell me that I need to wait maybe 15 minutes until housekeeping is done...okay no problem.
So I saw there's ice cream! mind you not like an ice cream that you need to do anything to serve it, no I'll just open the freezer and take it out kind of Ice cream, and since I'm sitting there waiting, might as well I have an ice cream! so I ask can I pay by card? aaaaa mmmm looking right, looking left, confusion, confusion....speaking Nepali....Mmm no maam sorry only cash...okay no problem.
I bring the cash but it's not exact amount, I mean its a cafe after all so there should be change no? aaaaaa confusion, confusion opening the cashier looking around, soo lost! like OH MY GOODNESS!!!! I told her give me back the money I'll bring you exact, and I went and brought her exact just to avoid my self more misery.
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!
Like how are those ladies are functioning adults in society?? and no no don't tell me language barrier! they run a fucking cafe and a guest house where it's all foreigners and English is an official language in Nepal, even uncles and aunties in their 80's manage to speak basic english, so it's not language barriers, it's Stupidity barrier and all of that practice of patience went to trash!
I didn't lash out, didn't do anything, but I did feel my anger building up inside of me and my mood shifted from being chirpy to being -_- resting bitch face mode.
Sigh......yeah I can't! do you think it's because these are the TikTok generation? like they are dumbified since birth by their parents who throw them ipads and go on with their days? I don't know! like such dumbness is not justified, but if these are TikTok generation, what's the excuse of those at work who were higher up than me and older than me, what's the excuse then?
Mind you I am not writing this to claim oh how intelligent I am, no ya akhi maybe I'm stupid! but I am surely not slow! like "slow" and "me" cannot come in one sentence!
And to be fair I'm actually becoming allergic to stupidity, like before I didn't mind hanging out with stupid superficial people who can't form a proper sentence, but now it feels like torture!
So I don't know if I'll ever manage to achieve the level of patience that will allow me to tolerate such useless humans! no you know actually what came to my mind and triggered my annoyance just now, is that I remembered an encounter and btw this happens to me with literally every single human that comes to my life and spends proper time with me...what happens is, without me they are smart, independent, they can do it all!
Once I enter the picture, somehow they become useless! and automatically it becomes my responsibility to sort life out for them, book the hotel, help with the transportation, exchange the money, talk to this and that to sort things out for them...Madness! but like how did you come to this country before meeting me? how did you take a taxi before meeting me? and if you bought anything....which money did you use if you didn't exchange? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!
It's like something in me makes people just throw it all on me, and I don't really notice on spot, because for me its 1000000x easier to just sort everything out on spot over having the argument or teaching them how it can be done, but upon reflection it just bugs me how dependable people become on me for absolutely no reason, it's like everyone chooses the easy life once I'm around....here Leeno do this, do that, can you do this? can you help me with that? Oh I don't know can you please do it?
UGHHHHH!!! Annoying! maybe it's not annoying when it's one human but I already have the family doing this, and my friends, so add to that people that I meet? how annoying!
The issue is, I don't notice until it piles up and piles up and we reach a day like today, which is a grumpy day and anything and everything is annoying me!
So this just a useless rant! it's my fucking blog and I can do whatever I want.
Peace the fuck out!
