Sucks To Say…I Told You So :)

I think the issue of people around me is they interpret my confidence and authoritative personality as “Arrogrance” so, somehow anything I say their first mechanism is to reject and say: No!

And they go on a mission to prove a point that they are right, when in reality if you heard my opinion about something, whether you asked for it or not, it means…I actually care!

You have no idea how many conversations I sit in and I’m absolutely quiet, not because I have nothing to say, but because it’s not worth my energy to waste it on people I don’t care what the trajectory of their life will be.

In the last few months, I had the opportunity to smirk and say:

I told you so…:)

Waaaayy more than I like! As if you read my oldest articles and up until today, I actually have no problem whatsoever in being wrong, matter of fact, I can only grow and learn if I hear a different opinion, a new perspective and a new learning.

And while I’m quite stubborn is alot of aspects in my life, but not when it comes to me saying I’m sorry and admitting my mistakes.

It’s so easy to say I’m sorry! And I dont mean the silly word “sorry” no I mean to be actually sincerely apologetic to someone if i know my behavior towards them was wrong.

And I don’t wait yearssss to do so, I literally apologize the moment I feel an apology is due, I explain what happened from my end and hope for their forgiveness but whether they do forgive or not, that’s on them not on me, and to be fair…it doesn’t really matter that much.

I mean what makes me not sleep at night is knowing that I owe someone an apology and I didn’t, but I sleep just fine if they didn’t respond for example 🤷🏽‍♀️ because thats not within my control and I did what I can and thats it.

However! For some reason, people expect from me to be the exact opposite of the above, so every thing I say, they take it as a statement to defy them, when in reality they don’t pause and think….but what’s in it for me?

Because if they do, they’d realise…nothing!

There’s no benefit for me whether they take my advice or not.

Latest incident, the shithole job which I resigned from in November, things escalated just because I stated my professional opinion about how something work related should be done.

Imagine…9 months of being silent and the one time I actually spoke up to say things will not work out if we keep on heading that direction, it spread absolute chaos across the organization.

And that incident took place Friday, weekend is off, Monday I resigned :)

I had zero attachment nor any fucks given to that shithole or anyone who’s inside of it….but the only girl who I took her side not because of who she is, but because I saw potential in her, and I saw how she was trying to make change but those old outdated fucks were doing their best to shut her down…she was the only one who was close to being a “work friend”

I barely talked to any human there, like at all! Only if its work related and if its absolutely necessary only, but she sneaked her way into my fortress….the typical way my walls crumble:

“Jokes”

She cracked a joke with me, and I couldn’t hold it in….so the bants started and we became “friends-ish” and I put here the ish, because she had no clue who I was in real life, what was my history, why someone like me would be in such a shithole, she didn’t even know who I truly am, so she wasn’t actually a friend, so thats where the “ish” comes from.

However people thought I had the argument and fought because of taking her side, as they are that superficial and toxic and its like high school kids but they are grandma and grandpas, but that couldn’t be farther from the truth!

Why on earth, me as a 33 years old working professional of 10 years experience, who have responsibilities and shit, risk all of that and the stable income….to take a side?

That’s not how adulthood works love! As much as i’d love to have such freedom, but I don’t have a wealthy family to back such nonesense so I didn’t actually resign due to that silly argument.

I resigned because of what I saw after the silly argument, it was the first time I had a proper conversation with the top management as humans, and I saw how absolutely disgusting they are:

Zero morals, zero values, zero care for anything but themselves and their pockets.

Even if that means eveyrone underneath them would burn, and be jobless and their livelyhood will go into shambles, they simple don’t care.

And thats why I left, because there’s no money in the world would force me to share space with such filthy morons.

In anycase, when it happened and they way they talked like shit about that girl (my friend-ish) infront of me, even though the person talking was actually her manager, and actually he was the chief responsible for everyone, imagine if the person who should be your leader, is the one throwing you under the bus.

I saw them plotting against her, and when I left I told her, resign because they will fire you, you don’t need this salary (her father is a rich multi-millionaire indian guy) and she clearly spends her salary on a purse, and I kept on saying trying to alert her to save her from the heart break, because I know how shitty it is when you get fired especially when its wrongly done.

I wanted to save her the pain that I felt in a job before, but that idiot didn’t believe me! She didn’t believe the only person who actually cared to stand with her, and even though I have nothing but honest with her since day one, she actually believed them!

They went after I left and started talking shit about me, spreading lies, telling people to not talk to me (i never had any friends from there to even bother talk to lol), and they went to her (the same chief who is her manager, and the one that spoke shit about her to me) he told her that “I” threw her under the bus and I mentioned her in my report to the top management.

Those bitches don’t know that I have zero fears from lowlives creatures, so when I heard that! I went and shat on the HR including the CEO looped and the legal and told them, next time I hear them or the chief or any one for that matter spreading lies behind my back then I will actually go and make the report which i submitted public, and then show to the entirety of the nation what organization they are.

But i didn’t bother with her, she didn’t even matter to me, so i was like…alright you stay where you are, and don’t reach out to me again and believe whatever you want to believe, and that was it she removed me from socials….3 months ago.

Now fastforward, 2 weeks ago she calls me, and I’ve changed my phone and somehow my contacts are fucked, like I have you on whatsapp saved, but you call me and it doesn’t show who you are.

So when I answered, i genuinely didn’t know who she is, and when she told me…ofcourse I was bland, what else would she expect?

She was expecting cheers and welcomes and love? In what world?

So i said, yes X how can I help you?

well apparently I was the first person she called to inform that I was right and they actually fired her :)

And while that was an insanely perfect moment to say:

“I told you so!!!”

I actually got really angry! It broke my heart that she have allowed them to do so! She is talented and as I said…RICH! Like the woman got fired 2 weeks ago and now she’s in LA living life! Why the fuck did she stay when I told her they are plotting against her (with proof).

She is so stupid I swear to god! Or actually i dont think its stupidity its immaturity and lack of real life experience, she is so protected in her father’s la la land, that she have no clue how brutal it is out there.

Well…..i tried to save her the heart ache, which clearly lasted maybe only a week hahahah 🤣

So we go back to the main point, it really makes me sad how people don’t believe me, no not only not believe me, they actually defy me, unfriend me, speak shit behind my back, and assign all of those horrible labels to me…eventually block me,

When in all scenarios, and maybe for the entirety of my adult life, whenever I had an issue or something to say to someone, I always ALWAYS! went and said it directly to their faces, and i always fought and not backstabbed…and even when I talk! I genuinely cannot remember the last time I lied! Whenever I don’t want to say something I just say:

“I don’t want to say, or speak about this, lets drop it” that’s it! sooo easy!!! So why the fuck people treat me with such hostility, I have no clue!

When I only have good intentions!

Because think about it, whether that girl stayed in that company or left, how does it impact me? When I’ve never even hanged out with her outside of work not even once….so what impact would it have on me? ZERO!

But she chose to believe the bitches that she saw with proof that they are unprofessional backstabbing liars and not me! When i didn’t even give her any reason to think of me anything badly.

Very strange….humans are very strange.

I actually had the same incident with a family member, but i don’t want to talk about it…but same thing! They always be hostile when the only thing I try to do is to help.

So i simply stopped, now whenever they cross my mind I tell myself, that’s not your battle to fight.

And I go focus on something else, because it gives me zero joy to be right and to say “i told you so”

Because from the beginning I only told you so because I cared, so why if I care about you, I want anything negative to happen to you?

I don’t know…i don’t know why anyone would not use logic!

Anyways…just a vent! And it frustrates me, but almost 99% of humans who came to my life and left, it was the same as above.

Majority’s ego is too big to come say I was right, but its clear from their actions…even if they didn’t tell me, I can see it :)

Peace out!