The Vision & The Mission

I'm just writing this to take the piss of Medium :) WHO'S POSTING THREE TIMES IN A DAYYYY NOW???? lolz...yeah as if they give a shit, actually I don't know who's the owner of Medium, let me check.

Oh how interesting! so apparently the person who founded medium was a co-founder at Twitter too! okay that's our knowledge share of the day, class dismissed.

Now let's talk about the vision...which actually not at all related to the vision and the mission but whenever I say vision...mission comes directly after it, well I did do corporate for 10 years love, what else do you expect of me other than loads of jargon that we hear of during huddles:
THE VISION AND THE MISSION!

Which btw, we never see any vision or mission, we always end up just kissing the asses of clients and praying for the best..but yeah sure bore me to death with the jargon that I need to open Merriam-Webster to understand what you're on about.

Anyways...why did I go into that rant? wallah I don't know! I came in peace and then I got dragged into a corporate rant somehow...THE VISION AND THE MISSION! hahahha I'm joking okay let me cut to the chase, but hey! my blog! my rules! I can chat shit FOREVER NOW!

I want to talk about visions, maybe its uncommon, and maybe for most it's yeah Leen is making things up, she's delusional....but sometimes I see visions!

I can't control it! like I cannot focus within and say: show me what happened with X, or who will I get married to...no no! not at all! as in NOT AT ALL!

They just come as an intrusive thought but it's so strong and its so vivid! as if I'm seeing a scene of a movie and in most cases those visions turned out to be real! like they actually happened! and someone it's not about me at all! but all of those I had visions related to, I felt very strong connection to and then I'd get a vision.

And I thought few years back, that whatever I see will actually be a reality but I guess I learned the hard way that the future is change-able, because the clearest vision that I ever saw, I don't think there's any logical way in this life time for it to be a reality, so maybe an action that I took changed the path that leads to that vision, or maybe destiny diverted me....but yeah I think the future is not written.

You know I got deep into a thing a while ago maybe 4 years ago called "The Akashic Records" and it was a concept that I never heard of before, until someone dropped it in a video so casually as if its like yeah common knowledge, I went and googled it and I actually got obsessed! I watched sooo many videos and I actually paid money for an expert who was talking always about it online on youtube,

I signed up for a course about it that she was about to do in a month from that time, but then she turned out to be a bitch and I got pissed off that I said, fuck you and your akashic records! you can keep the money give it to charity.

You see I have zero tolerance for people who are unkind if they are in this field of spirituality, because your skills cannot be real if you are a trash human! I feel like the first step into purifying your soul is kindness.

So if I talk to you and you are a bitch, but you sit on youtube and lecture us about forgiveness and carrying negative emotions and whatnot, shut the fuck up you ain't worth my time.

So I didn't get to actually experience going through my own Akashic records, but what made me mention it here is the fact that all the practitioner said one thing:
The future is changeable

So you can get answers about a question you ask, and the answers are true at that time of you asking, but it depends on what action you take.

So yeah I do believe that all the visions that I get, which are btw not that common, like I don't get visions every single day, maybe 2-3 times a year at max....and today it was one of them.

I was getting a massage (please don't judge me because I said I need to learn how to budget and this is my second massage in 3 days 😭 I'm only human!!!)

Anyways as I was in a deep state of relaxation I got a vision but it was too short, however it startled my system, because what's going on for the last few days doesn't make anysense! and I don't want to talk about it much, but like I am getting alot of intrusive thoughts when I'm not even thinking about that thing or person (you shall never know)

like I understand when you obsess over someone because you are already thinking about them, but like my days are soo busy and I'm doing a hundred and billion things and I have alot on my mind and then BOOOOMMMM intrusive thoughts!

Kind of makes me believe that if someone is thinking about you excessively then it will pop up in your mind.

Unrelated but speaking of telepathy, yesterday I thought of my friend's husband her son was going through some medical issues and did a surgery and whatnot and the dad (my friend's husband) who is also my friend was the one who was updating me about the boy, and last I spoke to him was maybe 2 weeks ago and I was the one who sent a message and whatnot, and I completely forgot actually that he didn't respond, but yesterday he popped into my mind, and I thought in my mind "oh! I wonder what is the update did they take him to the doctor's follow up appointment?"

and I swear to god within an hour my friend he sends me two voice notes giving me the update and telling me how the follow up went! WHAT!!!!!!!

Like he literally had two full weeks at any moment to send me that, why did he send me that literally after I thought of it! CREEPY AS FUCK!

Yeah man, I believe in those things psychic things, I mean I personally experienced enough to believe in such paranormal stuff, but I wonder what are those visions...you think I can control it?

You think I can maybe do something like a practice or something that I can do, and then get visions on demand? isn't that what psychics do? like you ask them a question and then they close their eyes and they see visions?

You know what's creepy, every single time in my life I went to a psychic, a tarot reader, a palm reader...etc. and I did that all across the globe, and each one of them said different things that I don't even remember any....but one thing! they all told me:
"You are psychic already, you just need to work on it"

And the last one which was the most scary lady, she told me...you can do my job if you want to!

And I said no no no no! thank you so much, I think I'll pass!

Scary AF! I don't want to be psychic! I don't want to see people's future or past, it already scares me when I get intuitions or messages, or visions and they turn out to be true!

Also I believe, that yes humans can be gifted, and maybe I do have it! BUT! I don't think just because you have something within you, you need to turn it into your business.

Like if you can heal, then go heal people part time and have an income from something else that isn't that, like I feel spiritual things shouldn't be monetized and if so (because its an energy exchange) then maybe its just a small donation but not like proper money as people charge, else I feel like it's not right. Like I don't think god gives such gifts to people so they can monetize it, I think its given so they can help.

And I personally, think I can "maybe" tap into a connection easier than others, and It happens without me meditating or anything, just sitting in silence where I'm relaxed is enough for it to happen. BUT! that doesn't mean I want to develop it more, it scares me!

But then again it's soo goood!!!! you have no idea how beneficial it is the ability to sense if someone is good or bad, but I can actually do it only if someone is reallyyyy gooood or really baddd!! like if they are really goood then I feel it from the first time I meet the person, and if they are reallyyy bad then also that! and without me knowing anything about them.

A friend of mine took me with him to a beach retreat and it was the first time for me to meet all of his group of friends, and everyone seemed friendly and welcoming, they are a nice bunch! and then a guy comes later and he is actually one that he always hangs out with them so he is inner cirlce and the moment he shook my hand and introduced himself which is just a basic "Hi, I'm X"

Something switched off in me, I felt discomfort and later I told my friend, yeah...something is off about this guy just be cautious when you deal with him, and ever since I never liked him and my friend obviously didn't take me seriously because why would he...but after a year and a half BOOOOOOM!!!! he showed his true colors :) and he was actually bad :)

So yeah I can feel only the extremes, like your energy needs to be extremely good or bad for me to sense it (because I don't practice or do anything that's built in) but also the curse of "Empathy" man...I'm so empathetic that actually even if it doesn't show on me but actually the energies of who's next to me transfers to me so easily! like I feel everything they are feeling.

Same guy friend, I went to his place one day and he was acting super normal and literally nothing is off...I said: I keep on sensing that you are very anxious, why are you anxious...what happened?
He's not the kind that communicate his feelings so he said no no not all, I'm not anxious, all is good, nothing at all bla bla bla.

And then he slipped days later in a conversation that he is actually very anxious due to XYZ.

So what is this? like...I'm too silly to be sitting behind a magic ball and do hocus pocus! like that is soo off character for me, and I also don't care! like I don't care to know the inside of people and to read their minds actually that would be hell!

I don't know...been a while since I got a vision, so when I got it today...it triggered all of those thoughts above.

But also!! weird things happen in life that feels paranormal! like there's this Crystals and gems seller in Kathmandu which I by chance entered his shop last trip here, and he actually gave me his card and I tried to reach out but none of the numbers or email work and when I tried to go find the shop (because I forgot where it was as I entered randomly) it was closed at a time where the entire market was opened.

Anyways we were talking about crystals and whatnot and initially I was looking for a crystal that a friend of mine in Dubai asked me to find it for her, and I did! and he had the only one in the market imagine! so I got her that then he started showing me other things and we started talking and I didn't even mention anything about me, like NOTHING AT ALL!!! when it comes to psychic ability and whatnot...I was looking at the crystals infront of me and he had a book in his hand that explains the properties of each...he looks at me and goes silent, we were sitting on the floor (don't ask why he put all the cystals on the floor and he was pointing a flash on them to see the real color inside and stuff)

Anyways..he gets up and he goes and he comes back with a beautiful rock in his hand, and he says....you need to get this!

and I'm clueless about Crystals so I asked what is that, he said:
Labradorite

And he opens the book to the Labradorite page and he gives it to me to read what does it do, and I was shocked! it's a Mystical Crystal, wait let me show you from the web:

*Blue Labradorite Meaning and Metaphysical Properties
The core blue labradorite meaning centers on transformation and spiritual awakening. It is fundamentally a stone of the Third Eye and Throat Chakras. By stimulating these energy centers, it helps bridge the gap between our physical reality and the spiritual realms.

Spiritually, this stone acts as a shield. It is believed to create a protective force field throughout the aura, strengthening natural energies from within. It prevents energy leakage and deflects unwanted negativity, making it an essential companion for empaths or those doing heavy emotional work.

The Stone of Intuition
Many crystal healers turn to labradorite healing to enhance psychic abilities. It is said to banish fears and insecurities, strengthening faith in the self and trust in the universe. When working with the blue variety specifically, you may find it easier to verbalize your insights and trust your inner voice.*

How did he know????? it's mad! and that's why I say sometimes there is magic in our reality, because things that happen to me doesn't make any sense! like I cannot find logical explanation, out of a hundreds of crystals that were infront of us, why did that man leave everything infront of me already and go get me that one crystal and said:
"You need to get this....trust me"

I did trust him, I got it! and I love it so much! actually I think that crystal is the most precious thing I own, and it's not about monetary value...it's about the "magic"

Donno.... I have so many questions on my mind, maybe someone will come on my path and help me answer them.

For now, I am so sleepy and its 9:30 but I didn't nap today so...I'mma hit the sack.

Peace out!