Wish There Was Plastic Surgeries For Your Souls

We live in the age of instant gratification, all across the board! Whatever it is! We want it now! And we get it Now Now!

I want Sushi, I get it now!

I want my house cleaned! I book it now!

I want to lose weight! Monjaro

I want six packs! Easy surgery

I want to laugh! Hundred and billions things to watch

To cry! Also hundred and billion things to watch

A boy friend? Just swipe right with your finger.

Someone to sleep with? No need to even swipe many already swiped on you, just choose!

Sigh…..when did humanity started going wrong?

I was reflecting on everything around me, as always! Looking at my life from the outside and the life of those who are around and nothing makes sense!

It doesn’t make sense to thrive for sooo much money without doing anything useful with that money! All of that hard work for a bag to impress people who already hate you?

And that bag turned out to be manufactured in China, just like any $10 Temu bag but you stupidly pay the price premium of a “Brand”

A brand that you’d never dare to go inside that store and haggle the astronomical price of that stupid piece of leather…but you dare do so with a poor woman selling veggies in the street! How could she say it cost $2 when just last week you got it for $1.7…inflation is indeed absurd! 
fuck capitalism!

And I understand we all have insecurities and we all look in the mirror and we see our physical faults…but how come we never look to see the faults within?

How come its soo easy for me to judge others telling them “oh did you notice that you did xyz” and “you behaved in this and that way”…when I’m the one who probably behaved in a way that provoked them to do so, how come we see others but not ourselves?

How come we waste years and years and years trying to get to know others..what they like, what they dislike, what makes them happy, whats makes them sad…

And yet…we don’t know that about ourselves?

How come we find it okay to spend money on a brunch, lets say 350 AED without thinking twice that it’s alot! And yet make excuses to give money when we see a human in another country that a 100 AED would feed them for a month!

Where did we all go wrong guys?

How did we collectively lose our path? It is all planned btw…this! All of this! It’s been a work in progress for soooo many years and they won.

And by “they” i don’t know who “they” are…the dark forces that control the world and us.

They won!

And they keep on winning every time we scroll on Instagram and hate on each other, and then hate ourselves.

They win every time at work we fuck each others up just because we are too insecure to see that we can all win! There’s no competition! A competition for what? To make corporates make more money out of extorting us?

Are you mad?

If we all collectively make a decision to work only 2 hours per day and only accept $10k USD a month as a salary, who do you think wins? Us or them?

How would the world work without us? But you are too afraid to stop the slavery machine!

You are not even capable of saying “No” to your parents, partner, siblings…friends!

How would you say No to the dark demonic forces?

I am so disappointed, and so frustrated…and just feeling emotionally overlwhemed.

Why the fuck does it always feel like that I’m the only one who fights…who fights for us all!

Why does it always fall on my lap to come save you!!!

But what about me! Like who will save me???

God? Okay why can’t god save you too? Why does my guilt and consciousness doesn’t allow me to sleep at night when I see you being bullied, abused, need saving…why can’t I wait for god to save you?

You know why? Because god already gave you the power to save yourself, but you choose to ignore it! So he will never save you!

How come I had only 3 work experiences in my life! in all three it ended in me fighting battles way bigger than me, for you fuckers! I could’ve just shut up, took care of my family, made the money and lived my dreams on the side! But I had to save you and I wish you even saw it! I wish you realised what I did! The darastic change that I was the cause of! but you don’t matter btw! I don’t do it for you individually, I do it for me…I’m the one who can’t live with myself if I don’t take a stand!

You will forever be a slave to the system.

Forever.

You’ll never feel content with the blessings you have!

You may have a husband that others pray day and night to have, healthy kids that so many parents can’t even have or do have but they are tested with diseases.

And yet….you choose to come tell me about X how her boyfriend flew her to venice to propose to her..how lucky that woman is, to have such a romantic man.

(That woman broke up with that man after 2 months btw because he was a cheater) while your husband has been loyal to you for over 10 years now, but loyalty is boring…routine is boring!

But how can a man be your fantasy? Your romantic escapism…when he have to slave as well so he can give you your dream? The kids dreams?

Who is paying for that “after school” activities? Who is paying for their ipads, their branded clothes, every single outing that doesn’t last an hour and cost over $200 dollars.

Who is paying for the birthday gifts (that can’t be under 400 AED as that what you and you fucking superficial friends accept as the standard) for those spoilt brats that their idiotic parents spend a fortune on a silly theme just so they can take pictures of! not knowing that their kids can have just as much fun in a park! with games that you can create! with a theme that you can craft with them at home DIY! and memories that will mean something to them! but now if you try to do that…they’d hate it!! they’d say mom you’re lame! and they’d cry their lungs out at how unfair life is…as all their friends did xyz! it’s too late! you integrated the kids in the slavery system CONGRATS!

We all have only 24 hours per day, how can a man be a slave, a work machine, the provider, the carer, the one who pays for it all, the one who carries all the burdens, the one you call for the stupidest thing because you convinced yourself that you are incapable of doing such a minor task in life and you need the man to make that call, check that info..book that flight! and yet…when he comes back home late at night, he doesn’t even hear a “thank you” he hears complains, he hears did you see what X husband got her? What did you get me?

He gave you peace of mind you idiot! He gave you security! He gave you a strong shoulder to cry on! He gave you a backbone that no money can give you, he gave you space to go live your dreams while he slaved to pay the bills…YOU IDIOT!!

You are all bunch of idiots i swear! Collectively! Including me! And I’m the most idiotic of them all!

Like how many lifetimes do you need to spend all of that money collected? Seriously? You bought already a mansion in every country, over 20 super cars, a jet…everything and then what? You are still slaving or fucking others up to build even more and more wealth.

Look at our ex-president, the most idiotic man of all times and yet the biggest evil! Billions if not trillions were sent out of Syria in Private jets before he flee the country.

It’s been a year now..one full year! And he’s locked up in a golden cage! Not allowed to breathe outside of that house, in a country where he is a stranger, where his is a fugitive, where he is treated like shit!…was it worth it? All of the billions, all the lives lost, all the blood, all the history and destruction…for a cage? How much is the rent of that cage? 10k usd per month? 20k?

Wouldn’t it be a better option if he made his billions and yet gave billions to the people of his land, his people! Wouldn’t it be a better investment if the lives lost were lives that grew to rule the world? Wouldn’t it be a better investment if we found a place for our ambitions and dreams in our own homeland and grew there instead of the brains drainage that happened and we all ended up alone….scattered all across the globe, abused..looked down on…treated like shit!

For what?

For money that will never be used? and that money is a printed paper that they decided it has value? And now even the paper is going extinct, its just digital numbers now….a digital number that they flush to zero and make it a million with a tweet :)

A single tweet.

And with one single tweet, lives are lost, dreams and families are destroyed…our humanity is lost.

Honestly…fuck you all! Fuck you for letting me fight alone when I’m too exhausted to fight!

I didn’t choose this fucking life! But I don’t know how to live any other life! I don’t know how to sleep the night if I don’t save you from your misery you fucking idiots!!! And I take that misery and carry it!

And every single time I say I will not do this again, I go and do it again.

Until I reached acceptance…khalas thats who I am…that’s what my life will always be now and in the future, and I don’t want to fight this fact anymore as that makes me even more exhausted…I accepted.

But that doesn’t mean I am not tired and that doesn't mean I won’t come and shout at you…I always will! Because thats the only thing I have to make me feel better…this! Words! Empty words! Letters on screens…they print money and I print words.

That’s all! But there’s always hope (I think)…and in all stories…good always win over evil…always! No matter how many decades it take, no matter how many lifetimes…evil will never win.

That’s all I know…peace out.